urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one Say what you're thinking right now Brian 2004-12-17T21:18:04Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:38288 2004-12-17T21:18:04Z 2004-12-17T21:18:04Z Travis Morrison--- Song for the Orca Well I havn't even looked at my live journal in quite a while. But i just need to get somethings out. People have really been pissing me off. I hate how everyone trys to hard and can't keep anything to themselves. I don't find it nessesary for everyone to know everything about what everyone else is doing, <br />or did. <br /> I used to live in brick, and there everyone just did there thing, and kept to themselves, in jackson everyone makes it seem like it is completely nessesarry to know what everyone else is doing. It doesn't change there life, it just bothers other poeople. I really don't like this place, and i'm not saying i hate everyone here, I just don't like the "atmosphere?" I guess u can say. <br /> Also... I can't stand these "scenes" and trends. People go to far out of their way to try to be cool and make everyone notice them...while in the long run no body is going to remeber you so don't bother. It doesn't make you cooler, you wont have more friends, and you probably wont enjoy urself anymore trying to be like someone else. Drinking or doing drugs or being in a band, or whatever the fuck you do to be cool doesnt make you cool. Everyone needs to be more individual and stop worrying about what other people are doing, and stop trying to do everything everyone else does. <br /> I really don't care if anyone reads this, I would actually probably prefer no one reading this so i don't hear anything about it, i just needed to get it out. and one last thing... I hate when im really nice to someone and they just blow me off. I'm not really nice to too many people. So if im nice to you, I like you, in most cases. Don't think im using u, or just being ur friend because i have to. I can't stand lying, so also please don't acuse me of lying to you because i don't like that either. <br /><br /> Hopefully the next entry wont be so depressing<br /><br /> --Brian urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:37918 2004-08-24T01:27:33Z 2004-08-24T01:27:33Z TBS-New American Classic <p><font color="#ff9900"><strong>Hey!&nbsp; Whats going on!&nbsp; This is Alaina!&nbsp; Brian told me I could write in his journal so I am going to!&nbsp; Today I saw Brian!&nbsp; He came to my house and hung out with me and Cassie!&nbsp; Even though he wasn't here for a long time we had a really good time!&nbsp; We went in my pool!&nbsp; It was alot of fun!&nbsp; I did a cartwheel into my pool!&nbsp; I think its cool that I can do that!&nbsp; <font color="#3333ff">mightybigcatch</font>:</strong> </font><font color="#000000" size="1">like pretty damn cool lol&nbsp; <strong><font color="#ff9900" size="3">&lt;- Thats what Brian thinks of my trick!&nbsp; lol!&nbsp; Then we played washer dryer!&nbsp; It was cool!&nbsp; Sadly Brian had to go home!&nbsp; But its ok...I will see him again!&nbsp; In any case...trust is an essential.&nbsp; And to have someone's trust is a gift that not too many people can recive!&nbsp; And trust can be lost very easily!&nbsp; Brian truts me enough to write in his journal and honestly...that makes me feel good!&nbsp; And I trust Brian alot too!&nbsp; Me and Brian haven't been friends that long but as long as it has been i tresure it very much!&nbsp; Everyday there was something new!&nbsp; I remember the first time I saw him!&nbsp; I didn't even know his name!&nbsp; It was on a ski trip on the way to Shawnee.&nbsp; I asked Nicole Mershon what his name was and she told me!&nbsp;&nbsp; You know what made me ask her?&nbsp; His hair!&nbsp; I was impressed that a boy could take such good care of his hair!&nbsp; Ever since then we have been friends!&nbsp; Even tough there have been some not so good times with us..I try to block it out with all the good things that has happened!&nbsp; The first day of the 2nd semester he was in my 4th period class!&nbsp; I was happy because there was someone I knew in it!&nbsp; That made us talk more too!&nbsp; And I am happy!&nbsp; Each bus trip we became closer and closer!&nbsp; One trip he was so sick!&nbsp; And I took care of him!&nbsp; I let him sleep on me!&nbsp; And I dont usually like congested over-nose blowing people! lol!&nbsp; Brian took me in the terrain park for the first time!&nbsp; I didn't do anything but its always the thought that counts!&nbsp; lol!&nbsp; Brian came to my first softball game of the season this year!&nbsp; It was nice of him considering he doesn't like baseball!&nbsp; On that same day he gave me a "fence-ship" bracelet!&nbsp; I treasure it!&nbsp; lol!&nbsp; We also share a common interest in going to the library!&nbsp; We go there somtimes!&nbsp; And we went to the park too!&nbsp; It was fun!&nbsp; I also corrupted Brian! lol!&nbsp; We have alot of good times together and I think I am so lucky to have someone like him in my life!&nbsp; And I love him with all my heart!&nbsp; And I always will!&nbsp; NO matter who he is with or who he isnt with!&nbsp; That girl is so lucky and if they dont see that...then they need glasses because Brian is the sweetest nicest most perfect person in the whole world!&nbsp; I would do anything for this kid!&nbsp; And I treuly mean that!&nbsp; There is SO much moe I can say about him but I can't because I can't even say it to him!&nbsp; But thats how it is!&nbsp; Ok...well I think I'm going to go because I'm feeling kind of sad!&nbsp; Brian...I love you and I always will and you will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart!&nbsp; I love you!&nbsp; </font></strong></font></p> <p><strong><font color="#ff9900"><a href="mailto:-@laina">-@laina</a>***</font></strong></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:37746 2004-08-13T04:27:11Z 2004-08-13T04:27:11Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br />Time now: 11:34<br /><br />Do you shave? acasionally<br /><br />What do you shave? face<br /><br />Why? it grows hair lol.. and i dnt like it<br /><br />What colour is your razor? blue<br /><br />What size is your bed? a twin i think<br /><br />Do you like it? not at all... its really uncomfortable<br /><br />You're going on a date for a walk around the lake then a coffee at a cafe. What do <br />you wear FROM your closet? MY hot neww gap jeans... along with an apropiate collard <br />shit.<br /><br />Would you go naked in a bathtub with a naked old man/woman with each of you having a bar of soap and soap each other till the bars of soap run out for a million dollars? honestly i'd rather just earn my money then win it... especially in this specific case lol.<br /><br />If you woke up one morning and found out you were going to stay in the body you have now for the rest of your life, what would you think? what did i do last night...?<br /><br />Letter or e-mail? letters of course... someone would only send a letter if they really cared... emails come and go lol.<br /><br />If world war III broke out, what would you say? Owell<br /><br />Buttons or boxes? button?<br /><br />Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? Amber... Val... Chris... Sam... Matt<br /><br />What's something a guy/girl will wear that'll turn you off? too much make up<br /><br />What's something a guy/girl will wear that'll turn you on? i guess anything a little dressy?? i dnt know<br /><br />What do you think of soulmates? dnt care...<br /><br />Florida or Cali? I've never been to California but i would still choose it over Florida<br /><br />Is the world screwed? Not yet<br /><br />Is cussing a neccesity in life? na<br /><br />What's an object you can't live without? surf board<br /><br />Can you live without the microwave? yes<br /><br />You have this uh, erotic dream about your friend of the opp. sex. how do you act and feel around that friend the next day? try to act casual... but wonder why the hell that happened<br /><br />Would you rather be rich with 15 spoiled brats or just barely making it with a dog? <br />barely making it with a dog sounds more exciting<br /><br />How's your schoolwork for you right now? The Grapes of Wrath is terrible<br /><br />What's something someone's done to make you hold a grudge against them? Kissed the girl that i really like... lol<br /><br />Favorite weather: 75 and sunny with clouds. <br /><br />What's one look trait that attracts you to a guy/girl? natural beauty<br /><br />What's one personality trait that attracts you to a guy/girl? very outgoing<br /><br />Do you know what 143 means? I think I've figured it out<br /><br />Who's phone number are you hoping to get? HAHA i was just talking about this today... Ashley Simpsson of course<br /><br />Describe melancholy, if you don't know, then skip this question. despressing?<br /><br />Describe mellow. calm <br /><br />Do you beleive in ghosts? na<br /><br />What time did you go to sleep last night? around 3:00 maybe?<br /><br />Which guy/girl do you wish to be with RIGHT now? Val, matt, and/or chris<br /><br />Is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? Na... unless ur doing it as a joke and ur bf/gf is it on it too haha <br /><br />Would you rather be married in venice, italy, or honolulu, hawaii? Honolulu..Venice would be romantic... but i heard its really dirty?<br /><br />Would you rather eat sandwiches or pasta for the rest of your life? sandwhichwes<br /><br />(guys) How would you feel if you gave a girl a flower? romantic<br /><br />(girls) How would you feel if you got a flower from a guy? <br /><br />Do you want to drop out of school? No<br /><br />What do you think of the words, "no pain, no gain"? try harder<br /><br />What do you think of the quote "eyes are the passageways into the soul"? I think its metaphorical lol <br /><br />What do you think of sleep? I like it...<br /><br />Are you a procrastinator? yes<br /><br />Waffles or pancakes? pancakes<br /><br />How's your cereal in your bowl? its crunchy? lol<br /><br />What's an annoying trait about you? a little too emotional<br /><br />Football or rugby? football<br /><br />Hat or visor? hat<br /><br />Ice skating or rollerblading? rollerblading<br /><br />(guys) Your gf has long beautiful hair which you love, she comes to school the next day with a short crop cut. what do you HONESTLY think? WTF lol<br /><br />(girls) your bf has hair you love. he comes to school the next day with a shiny head. what do you HONESTLY think? <br /><br />Pizza or burgers? pizza<br /><br />What colour is your jacket? blue and gray<br /><br />What's something you ALWAYS have on you? house key.. and drum key<br /><br />What do you think of guys with nailpolishes? I think nothing of them lol<br /><br />Who do you want to take with you to the prom? a lovely date ...<br /><br />Is cyber sex considered cheating? It's much too pathetic to be considered anything<br /><br />How do you react to change? in certain cases its bad... but in others its exciting<br /><br />Are you happy? I'm alright<br /><br />Favorite berries: blue berries<br /><br />What's one facial feature you'd like to change about yourself? I like my face.. nothing<br /><br />Do you take a shower after a bath? yes on the very rare acounts i take a bath<br /><br />What's colour's your towel? Right now purple but it changes daily<br /><br />What do you think of knuckle cracking? i dont mind it too much... <br /><br />What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? we're just friends... that made me a little upset... but its all good.<br /><br />Chalk or crayons? chalk<br /><br />How's you happiness level right now? from one to ten.... 5<br /><br />Coffee, tea, or me? tea<br /><br />Wouldn't you just love to hug someone right now? YES!<br /><br />Who was the last person who complimented you? Amber<br /><br />What's wrong with your school? Too many people<br /><br />Do you know what an aphrodisiac is? now i do lol<br /><br />Who do you wish you could kiss? guess<br /><br />Movies at home on in a theater? Home<br /><br />Wanna live in a castle? Not really<br /><br />What coat do you wear in the winter? my ski jacket i guess<br /><br />(girls) What's something about guys you don't get? <br /><br />(guys) What's something about girls you don't get? what they really enjoy...<br /><br />Who was better in rush hour/rush hour 2? chris tucker<br /><br />If someone said you were hot, what would you think? not much of it... depending apon the individual of course lol.<br /><br />You go to your bf/gf's house for the first time and in his/her room, and everywhere is... you. What do you think? a little weird.... but assuring<br /><br />What happens when you hear the word christmas? nothing<br /><br />Does being a psycho sound appealing? na<br /><br />What food brings back good memories? DOMINOZ!!<br /><br />Do you talk to yourself? yup<br /><br />What's your opinion on love? It's whatever you want it to be...<br /><br />What's a happy memory of a time you've spent with the opp. sex? Talking to Val in history everyday last year<br /><br />Would you rather go ballroom dancing or square dancing? Ballroom<br /><br />Do you think you can afford to lose weight? i guess?<br /><br />If you could dye your hair any colour, what would you dye it? just a little darker<br /><br />What's the nicest thing any one has ever told you? They loved me<br /><br />How was the survey? long ... but fun<br />Time finished: 12:25 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:37475 2004-08-13T00:57:44Z 2004-08-13T00:57:44Z and one is all I recieved urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:37172 2004-08-13T00:54:56Z 2004-08-13T00:56:24Z DC Maybe we are better off? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:37088 2004-08-11T04:37:01Z 2004-08-11T04:37:01Z This is the police speaking - this club is closed FOREVERRR! Well... summers almost over, and I havnt done anything worth while. I've enjoyed summer, but there is no specific one thing that was great. <br /><br />I'm sure within these next three or four weeks something will happen. <br /><br />All in all... i just wanted to write in my journal, because i havnt updated in a while, but i had nothing great to write. So that was good enough. <br /><br />later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:36728 2004-07-26T02:38:35Z 2004-07-26T02:38:35Z The new amsterdams--- Well this summer has been like 2 nights over and over. I do the same things.... dont get me wrong im having a great time and all, but i need to set a summer goal or something. At the beggining of the summer i thought i knew what i was going to do... and that probably would have been fun, but yea. <br /><br />So now im think im going to think about sometrhing to do this summer. <br />I have to read those books for english. Im not in the mood to read, i dnt really ever have time. Usually i read at night before i got to sleep. But ive been going to sleep at like 3, and i cant read before that, i just cant read late, my eyes get tired and what not and yup.<br /><br />Well I got my new drumset. Its amazing. The bass drum is so intense it sounds great. So thats cool. And yea... thats it<br /><br /><br /><br />-------what the hell am i waiting for... I have never done this before. I usually just go for it... but im scared or intimidated or something i dnt no. Hopefully its not too late after tonight that would really suck. next time ill have my coach to asure i do the right thing lol.------ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:36467 2004-07-19T07:58:22Z 2004-07-19T07:58:22Z Well... the last week or so has been fun. I guess i havnt updated in a while. Honestly ... it seems like the onbly time i update is when im messed up. But whatever.<br /><br />Today, (since it is 4 o clock) is my birthday. It doesnt really matter. Nothing specail is happening. Its jusyt another day/.night. I'm going driving later, hopefully i do good, because i hacnt practiced at all. I;m sure ill do fine... i seem to be a quick learner.<br /><br />So the last couple of days i've just been either hanging with chris and going ot the beach.. or hanging with val. Sometimes both. Me chris and jerry went two days ago...to the beach... it was good. Actually it was really good. wait no lol nevermind jerry didnt go that day. it was just me and chris., but yea, it was really good. I got a lot of waves, and im getting good. Actually i guess i am good. <br /><br />Well im tired.... but i have to wake everyone up at 7:00 so i mine as well stay up the rest of the night. I went outside before just to look around. Nothing special of course... except matts now home. That;s cool because we're good friends and i havnt talked to him since before he went on vacation. So we'll see how that was. <br /><br />Later<br /><br />......................... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:36094 2004-07-09T03:04:16Z 2004-07-09T03:04:16Z Taking Back Sunday - - - - A decade under the influence the last couple days were exciting. Everything from car chases... To hanging with old friends. Then I woke up effing early and went to the beach for a little while this morning. After that me and my friend scott from brick went to this little resturant for lunch and it was nice.<br /><br />then we went back to scotts and I fell asleep because I was tired as hell. Then tonight I went over Val's for a while...and that was lovely lol. <br /><br />I might chill with chris later tonight... I havn't seen him in quiet some time<br /><br /><br />peace nea... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:35690 2004-07-07T15:56:12Z 2004-07-07T15:56:12Z Well I havnt updated in quiet some time. <br /><br />I need to get to the library to return this dumbass books, and get the ones I need to read for the summer reading thing for school. And they're pretty lame books too, atleast thats what I heard.<br /><br />So yea.... I've just been hanging around. Going out like everynight, its been a blast lol. today I was going to go to the beach, but the surf isnt good, so i really doubt we'll go. I'll probably just chill with chris or something. <br /><br />And tommarow I shold be seeing a movie with val which should be simply wonderful lol... so yea tht should be grand urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:35441 2004-07-06T00:29:48Z 2004-07-06T00:29:48Z Hello everybody. My name.. is Ashley, and I just got into Brian's Lj with his very unusual but funny password. <br /><br />I don't know what Brian's been doing.. but him and Chris went to the beach today, and surfed it up. And tonight.. well, I don't want to tell you what they're doing tonight.. but its funny.<br /><br />I think Brian's mom is weird.. this is what she thinks about the music we listen to... "that sounds like devil worship"<br /><br />That's cool.. and I'm done.<br /><br />Brian is the man.<br /><br />&lt;33 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:35100 2004-06-22T19:33:34Z 2004-06-22T19:33:34Z Ha i really say the wrong things all the time. But i dpn't mind anymore, but i should work on it for the future lol. sry.<br /><br />Well I've been having fun. tommarow should be fun. I'm hanging out with a bunch of hoodlems after school then hitting up a party to watch some of my friends bands play. <br /><br />I want to get in a good band. But a good band, not a bad one lol. <br /><br />Let's see what else. Hmm. <br />yea I don't remeber what I've been doing the last couple days <br /><br />GOOD BYE!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:34847 2004-06-21T02:20:33Z 2004-06-21T02:20:33Z I know exactly what I want to do this summer.<br /><br /><br /><br />and none of u can stop me lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:34789 2004-06-19T17:03:33Z 2004-06-19T17:03:33Z Well...yesterday was fun.<br />It started out boring, and some plans got cancelled so i thought it was going to suck. Then I was talking to Gina and we decided to hang out so that was grand.<br /><br />Me and joel went over and hung out with steph and gina, and then ryan and tom came over a little later. It was pretty cool. <br /><br />And that was my whole day urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:34312 2004-06-18T02:34:51Z 2004-06-18T02:34:51Z Well today was fun<br /><br />I went to school of course which was very close to hell.<br />Then I was really bored after school... which also sucked.<br />I eventually ended up hanging out with Sam and Megan at sams...and then joe came over, and then I left. and my mom started complaining about how she cant take down the garbage because she saw a flash of lightning. I thought it was funny. <br /><br />goodnight urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:34218 2004-06-18T01:26:27Z 2004-06-18T01:26:27Z I sohuldn't lie to him...<br /><br />but its kind of weird <br /><br /> lol...dnt even ask urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:33912 2004-06-17T19:51:37Z 2004-06-17T19:51:37Z Well now it's completely gone... and I feel really good about it<br /><br />on second note...today was okay<br />School was pretty boring and then went to the library, and got two books<br />that suck<br /><br />but owell urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:33786 2004-06-15T20:35:01Z 2004-06-15T20:35:01Z Well i've been listening to Aberdeen for the last three days, and have not been my usual self...which is a good thing. <br /><br />And best of all!!... I think I'm really close to ready urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:33526 2004-06-14T00:21:54Z 2004-06-14T00:23:05Z Another servey<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a> gum: double-mint<br />restaurant: I forget the name lol (Whatever dude...im here till one)<br />drink: 7-up<br />season: summer<br /> <br />type of weather: 70 degrees with a few clouds and a very little bit of wind<br />emotion: depressed<br />thing to do on a half day: Friends<br />late-night activity: Porch<br />sport: surfing<br />city: -------<br />store: Guitar Center in PA<br /><br />When was the last time you...<br /><br />cried: this morning &lt;-- That's pathetic<br />played a sport: um... last day of gym? lol<br />laughed: today<br />hugged someone: yesterday <br />kissed someone: last tuesday :`(<br />felt depressed: this whole past week <br />felt elated: it's been too long<br />felt overworked: waking up this morning lol<br />faked sick: dnt recall...<br />lied: this afternoon<br /><br />What was the last.. <br />word you said: Thank you <br />thing you ate: Dinner <br />song you listened to: Underoath<br />thing you drank: Juice<br />place you went to: Val's house<br />movie you saw: Almost Famous<br />movie you rented: don't recall<br />concert you attended: Dingo Fest<br /><br />Who was the last person you.. <br />hugged: Joel lol <br />cried over: Jen<br />kissed: Jen<br />danced with: No idea<br />shared a secret with: i think joel<br />had a sleepover with: matt<br />called: My mom <br />went to a movie with: hmm... I think jen, scott, and amanda<br />saw: Brother<br />were angry with: Jen <br />couldn't take your eyes off of: Jen<br />obsessed over: Jen &lt;--- Bummer<br /><br />Have you ever.. <br />danced in the rain: Absolutly<br />kissed someone: yes<br />done drugs: what do u consider a drug?<br />drank alcohol: yes<br />slept around: na<br />partied 'til the sun came up: yes...but it turned out bad <br />had a movie marathon: not resently but planning on it very soon!!<br />gone too far on a dare: dnt no<br />spun until you were immensely dizzy: Saturday night... <br />taken a survey quite like this before: month ago..? give or take urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:33085 2004-06-13T21:07:52Z 2004-06-13T21:07:52Z I don't remeber august this cold This weekend was pretty bad. <br />Friday i went to Allison's and hung out with her for a while. Then I went to Matts and hung out with him and his cousin Chris. I got pretty sick and then fell asleep.<br /><br />Then i slept most of the day on saturday, and went to the show. The show was terrible, and i really wish i hadn't gone...not just because the bands wern't good, just because. Then i came home and that was just about it.<br /><br />Today I slept really late again, and couldn't get out of bed, then when I finally got up...I went on the computer to check out thew surf report. It sucked so we didn't go to the beach, and I went for a long ass bike ride with chris and andrew. It was fun...actually it wasnt really that fun but it got my mind off things...which is highly nessesarry at this point. <br /><br />This whole weekend I didn't want to move. There was nothing I wanted to do it sucked. I didn't want to go out anywhere, and I didn't want to stay home. I don't get it...but whatever. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:32964 2004-06-13T02:46:50Z 2004-06-13T02:46:50Z I need help urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:32701 2004-06-11T01:29:22Z 2004-06-11T01:29:22Z Yea well I should be looking for info on political events in 1943, but... I can't find anything so I'm updating my journal. <br /><br />Nothing great has happened<br />Tuesday I hung out with jen i dnt know if i already posted that but yea. It was fun <br />awkward but fin. Then yesterday was alright. Me and chris rode around a lot then we went to this girl Lissa's house. It was weird because she wasnt really talking to much. Her friend Kelsey was there, so we mostly talked to her...and andrew was there too<br /><br />And that's it urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:31766 2004-06-07T01:11:29Z 2004-06-07T01:11:29Z I really don't get myself<br /><br />I want this so bad...<br />but I just put a little thought into it...and I can't figure out<br />how I could posibly want this<br /><br />It doesn't make me happy at all<br />She's annoying urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:31497 2004-06-06T20:32:37Z 2004-06-06T20:32:37Z Dammit!!<br /><br />I left my northstar cd (my favorite cd/band) at mikes house in brick, and im not going to see it for a long long time. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:devoted_to_one:31455 2004-06-06T15:06:12Z 2004-06-06T15:06:12Z well i'm at scotts house... <br /><br />last night was fun...and not fun at points but yea.<br />it's a long story and i dnt plan on typing it, and i probably wont feel like telling u it if u ask me...so dnt bother. <br /><br />yea. so this really sucks...I'd really like a second chance to make things work out, but i dnt no. I think last night may have bene a mistake, but as of now i dnt regret it because it got a lot off my mind.